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PostPosted: Mon Nov 05, 2018 2:26 am  |  Posted from: Canada
  

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Couple days ago I met up with a gf for a coffee & to go to a Craft Fair and she arrived totally beside herself having just found out one of her sons went on a serious addicted (probably although she can't bring herself to see it) tear and ended up with mega police charges.

Just found this and am debating emailing it to her. I have no idea who wrote it or when but it sure nails addiction which is so very very hard for parents and families to cope with.

I know I've talked about it on here a long time ago but I've had to stop contact with a former gf/coworker who has a significant gambling addiction and has managed to impoverish herself. Lots of us helped her when she was diagnosed with breast cancer and underwent a double mastectomy but nothing stopped the gambling. I sometimes wonder how she is getting along as she has to be pushing 80 and was basically 'couch surfing' where she could when I last hear of her.

Here we do not have mandatory treatment unlike the USA. Here you're allowed to carry on your merry way until you decide to change. Given that our welfare system is so generous, flexible and unable to say 'no' many are able to get by and carry on forever and/or until something terrible happens. I truly wish we had mandatory detox because in my own opinion at least if you can get the person dry and sober you have a chance to talk to them about what they're doing and maybe make a plan with them to change their lifestyle.

Guess I debated emailing this enough. Am going to mind my own business and do nothing .........

I'm your child, or spouse, or friend.
But I've changed.
I don’t belong to you anymore.
I don’t care about you.
Not in the way you want me too.
I care about getting high.
I WANT to get high.
I will do ANYTHING to get high.
I LOVE getting high.
I NEED to get high.. and I will step over you to do it.
When I look at you, I don’t see YOU.
I see a means to an end.
You have money.
I want it.
End of story.
I don’t care if you can’t pay the rent.
I don’t care if you need groceries.
I don’t care if you promised not to give me money again.
I don’t care if you lie to Dad.
I don’t care if you’re broke.
Sell your rings, take a loan, sell your electronics, max out your credit cards, borrow the money from someone else, because if you don’t, I will STEAL it.
I WILL find a way to get HIGH.
You think you can CHANGE me, or SAVE me.
But you're WRONG!
Something cold and dead slithers in me.
You can CRY all you want.
Your tears won't change anything.
I have no integrity or values.
My morals are a thing of the past.
I will say anything, do anything, hurt anyone, to get my next FIX.
Although I play the game with you, make no mistake.
I don’t play it because I care, I play it because I want my DOPE.
I'll tell you what you want to hear,
I'll promise you the world,
I'll look you in the eyes, and I'll break your heart.
Over and over again.
I don’t have a heart.
I have a HUNGER.
It’s calculating and manipulative, and it OWNS me.
In a strange way, you’re thankful for this.
For when I need something I find you, quick!
Then when I’ve gotten what I want from you, I leave.
You’re anxious without me.
You offer to buy my food or pay my rent.
By now, your NEED is almost as great as mine.
I can’t stay SICK without you.
You can’t breathe without ME.
You think you’re helping me.
You believe you’re making a difference, but what you’re really helping… is my ADDICTION.
I won’t tell you this, but you know it, deep down.
If we keep going like this, one or both of us will die.
Me from an overdose, that you paid for, and you from a heart attack, or stroke.
You’ll wait YEARS for me to change, or see the light.
You keep my secrets and protect my lies.
You clean up my messes and bail me out.
You love me to the exclusion of EVERYONE else.
But I'm not the only one who changed
You're bitter and resentful.
You hide from your friends and isolate.
Your world revolves around one thing only… ME.
But will your LOVE ever become greater than your FEAR? Would you be strong enough to reach out for help?
Will you learn to say NO?
Will you allow me to experience the consequences of my actions?
Will you LOVE me enough to feel your guilt and stop enabling my addiction?
I lay trapped with within the confines of this cold dark, serpent – addiction, and I am… dying.


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 Post subject: Re: Addiction
PostPosted: Mon Nov 05, 2018 11:19 am  |  Posted from: United Kingdom
  

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Whoever wrote that has a deep understanding of how an addicts mind works. :(

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 Post subject: Re: Addiction
PostPosted: Mon Nov 05, 2018 6:28 pm  |  Posted from: Canada
  

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@H - Yes whomever wrote it has experienced addictions themself or had somebody really close to them addicted. I don't think I ever saw my parents drink as a child let alone be drunk. Addictions can definitely rip through a family with dire consequences.


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